my voice shook , when i said hello .

i was nervous obviously, and the fact that you were perfect didn't help. x


i don't know whether it was the fact that you immediately showed you cared, rather than being guy-like and flirt with me right off the bat. or perhaps it was the way you looked at me- in a flattering way- your smile was wonky, and that made my heart speed up. i wasn't looking for love- no. all love ever does it break, and brings discomfort; at least that is how it was for me. i don't know. with you, it was a bit differently. i felt the sparks fly instantly, and i had shook my head. this isn't a movie- why am i feeling this way? i had hoped that you didn't take my clumsiness as a fault. you laughed a lot. i wasn't sure if it was because i was doing something lame, but no. you said i was cute when i'm nervous, and of course that made me blush. basically, i was acting very girly, which is a rare thing for me. i felt childish, actually. i didn't care at the moment. all i knew was that you were a gentleman, and that maybe- just maybe- i'd have a little sunshine in my life. i let you know that i wasn't perfect, and that i often screwed up in life. your response was another smile and a, "i think you're great." that made me feel better about myself. i told you that you were strange. you said, "we both are." yes, the fact that you said we made me smile wide like a little kid with ice cream. that day was nice- perfect even. i can't get past it. i don't know how you find me interesting or how you enjoy my company, but thank you. you make my heart smile, and it's a relief that i'm not alone. because, you.. you're here. ♥